I just can't believe how fast time is going...
It really does feel like yesterday we were bringing Alex home from the hospital. Scared out of my mind because I didn't know how to care for a newborn. Hoping that I could take care of his belly button correctly, completely worrying about giving him a bath, and constantly questioning if I would know what to do when he cried.
Then after being home for only 10 days, and still going into the doctor's for routine "weigh ins," the doctors suspect that Alex has a serious infection and were concerned that it would attack his brain/spinal area.
There are just somethings that the books just can't prepare you for.
Not knowing if it was OK to continue to bond with him (but then having thoughts of guilt even thinking those horrible things), questioning if using the skin to skin method would help him get better, wondering if we would leave the hospital with him being OK. Maternal instincts and bonding seemed to really kick in once we were admitted to the hospital. Things that I worried about (e.x. belly button, inability to breast feed) all seemed so simple and unimportant after we were admitted.
Now, I have this happy, bouncy, smiling, healthy baby boy who just babbles just as much as his Mama does. The joy he brings to us is just unbelievable. Who would have thought that I would look forward to waking up at the 5 o'clock hour to get things together so that I can spend some time with Alex before I go to work. Who would have ever thought that you could make changing a stinky diaper into a fun and silly game??
At 5 months old I just wish time would slow down!! Alex is just too much fun, even when he is fussy!! I'm so thankful for my Baby Alex!!
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