Always Worrying...

I understand now why my mom continues to worry about me. I am 35 years old yet she still worries. No matter what the situation is, she worries. I now know that this feeling will never go away...

I am a parent now and have this constant feeling of worry with my son. Every minute of the day, I worry...

This isn't an anxiety issue, this is just this nagging feeling of wanting to always know my child is safe.

I wake up in the middle of the night, worry about my son, go check on him and realize he is ok. I go back to bed. He wakes up in the morning and I worry about getting his diaper changed and worry about staying on schedule to get to school and work on time.

I worry ALL day when I am working and hope that he is safe at day care and having a good day.  We get home from day care and the worry continues... Did he get enough veggies at dinner, is he developing a cough, did I read long enough to him??

Today, parents had a much larger worry, a much deeper worry for their child...

Today parents worried about their children's well being in a sense of.... Is my child still alive!!

The fear and terror that these parents had in Connecticut today is unreal to me. I can't even imagine the thought process of these parents as they learned that there was a shooting at their children's school. Is my child alive? Will I see my child again?? Are they scared?? Are they in a safe place? Did we talk about what happens if they are in danger in school? Is my child alive?? What was running through their heads when they learned of a school shooting??

My heart goes out to the families who lost their children. Lost their children in an environment which is supposed to be safe. A place for learning and play. A place where we would never think was so unsafe that innocent children would be gunned down.

Because of todays' events, I worry for the day my own son goes to school. I am afraid for his future. What can we do to keep our children safe?? These parents in this small, suburban town probably never imagined that their world would be turned upside down and have to face this tragic and senseless act of violence.  It's bad enough we have to worry about when our child reaches the age of parties, peer pressure, and independence. Parents should not have to worry about their young children coloring, cutting, and gluing papers together!!

Praying and thinking of all of these families, school staff, educators, and the community that is suffering through this horrible time. Hugging my own baby tighter tonight and trying to remember that things are not as bad as they may seem at the moment. I'm going to go to fall asleep tonight not dwelling on what I don't have... I'm going to count my blessings and just be thankful that my baby is safe tonight...

How can we make things safer for our children??