It has been such a busy time for our family!
In November we were surprised by the fact that I was pregnant with Baby # 2! The weekend started off a little slow. It was Veteran's Weekend and we had Monday off from work in observance. Typically, our Saturday morning is filled with an activity of either music or soccer class. This time it was music and I just didn't feel like going. It was an odd feeling because I love getting together with our music friends and getting out of the house for an activity. That particular Saturday I just didn't want to do anything. I wasn't sick or coming down with anything, I just wanted to sit on the couch with my blanket and do absolutely nothing. It was quite the lazy weekend.
Monday rolls around and since I had the day off I decided I better make up that music class, so I kept my son home from day care so that we could spend some time together. I was so happy because my son decided it was also a great day to sleep in! So as I roll over on my stomach to reach my phone, I am alarmed about the pain in my boobs!! It hurt so bad I quickly rolled back onto my back. I thought it was just a fluke so I rolled back onto my stomach. Nope, it was definitely pain. A ridiculous amount of pain.
I kept repeating in my head, "This can't be, no way could it be. Nah, there is just no way!!" Well, took the test, 3 tests and they all came back the same PREGNANT. You would think my first reaction would be of excitement and joy!??! Considering a year ago, I was the one who wanted the second child!! Yeah, that was definitely not the case. I went into complete denial mode. Denial, denial, denial. Then after a half hour of denial I went to disbelief. Then, I went right back to denial. Then it happened. I just completely lost it and spent the next 2 hours sobbing. Very thankful that my close friend who lives just 10 houses down brought her son over so our kids to play together and we could talk things out.
Definitely felt better after our talk (of course I always feel better after we talk). Continued the day, in complete disbelief. We went to music class (where the teacher complimented me and said I was glowing -- and I'm thinking to myself, I have been crying for 2 hours - and I'm glowing??), took my son to lunch at his favorite restaurant, and came home to get some household things taken care of on my day off. Was still in complete disbelief.
Probably didn't start realizing what was really going on until the all day morning sickness kicked in. Even at my first initial ultra sound appointments -- I just couldn't belief it. Not to say that I wasn't completely excited to take the pictures home and show my husband but, I was just still in so much disbelief.
We come to terms with different things in our life at different times! Even when you know how fortunate you are and how it is a blessing, sometimes it just takes some time to grasp things and let them absorb into reality. Of course I knew that this was something to be happy and excited about, the changes just were a lot to handle at first. Now, if we could just find out the sex of this baby, we will be able to jump into another type of excitement.
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